Sometimes it is hard to figure out the season of your life and lately it’s hard to figure out the season of the year, at least if you live in the Mid-Atlantic States. One day it feels like Spring and the next like today brrrr….let’s just say I remember quickly it’s winter (when I head out with no coat!!!)
But that’s not exactly what I mean by the season thing. Right now I’m in the throes of child raising. My two young children take
every single ounce most of my energy and that is okay! In fact that is good. That is where I am and believe it or not, lucky for me, I chose this season. How nice is that to have a choice and be able to do what you want and lucky enough to create the life you want. Talk about lucky.
One of my fabulous friends sent me this awesome article from No Side Bar. (If you’ve never checked out this site. You need to, it’s great.) And I totally loved it. It just really resonated with me. I’m always feeling like shitttttttt there is so much to do. And then I get all caught up in the things I’m not doing or the things I wish I was doing (note- late night cheesesteaks, running marathons, or traveling Europe.) The whole point about this article is that it’s not about letting dreams go to die but rather it’s about putting certain things on hold while it’s appropriate and focusing on the current season of your life. I think I can take that a step further and think about it in terms of our spirituality, our faith, our relationship with God.
It’s not always the same. I have this great example that makes me look like a little foolish- but I’m totally okay with taking one for the team. When I was in college I had a lot of really awesome opportunities for strengthening and deepening my faith. Long story short I actually remember at one point thinking what happens when you’re relationship with God is so perfect that there’s nothing to work on?!! Ha. Jokes on me.
Know the season.
Maybe you’re in a season of thinking Church?!!?! Well that’s not somewhere I’m going anytime soon, I cannot get my kids to behave at the playground!!!
Maybe prayer feels empty and lonely.
Maybe you don’t even know what you believe anymore.
Let’s just say that if we haven’t been there yet, chances are we will be there someday.
Talk to God about it and own it. Be open and honest. For me this can be super hard depending on how bad I’m feeling about the place that I’m in. But let me tell you this my greatest moments of prayer have stemmed from my most honest moments. It’s not always easy to be honest but it’s so important.
Be patient with yourself.
That being said I think it’s important to be okay with WHEREVER you are and WHATEVER you are feeling. Be patient, because God is. Sometimes we feel like we need to be somewhere else. That’s the whole thing. We cannot be. We can only be where we are right now. I’ve learned that the hardest thing to do is resist the place I’m in. It only takes all of the joy out of it and takes be further from my own truth and from God.
Be patient with others.
Just as the times of our lives shift and we find ourselves praying differently, relating differently, and learning differently. That’s true for everyone else, too. In general it’s easier for me to be patient with others than myself. There is an exception though and it’s when someone else is where I think I want to be. I look at the people who can take their whole family to Church and leave with their hair still nicely done and their makeup in tact (oh and their sanity.) But hey that’s not me, that’s not right now, so patience my dear- I tell myself- patience.
What season of your prayer and relationship with God do you find yourself in?
No matter where it is. I’m glad we can journey together.