I’ve got lots of doubt. I’ve always had it. Sadly, it plagues me some days and makes me feel incapable. Maybe you can relate, maybe you cannot – I hope you don’t relate but have a feeling that some of you might. That’s why I’m writing about it. It’s hard to write about because it makes me feel even worse, less sure, more afraid.
But something I’ve found to be true is that once I say aloud what it is I most fear. Once I really come face to face with it and name it, it somehow seems to shrink. It’s sort of like that big terrifying shadow in your room, when you turn the light on it- the shadow loses its scare factor.
So today I’m naming my doubt.
Somedays I doubt that I have enough to say that is meaningful that will help others on their journey, I’m going to keep speaking anyway.
Somedays I feel like all I’m doing is screwing it up or at best scraping by, I’m going to say no to that belief and trust that I’m more than enough always. When I don’t feel it I’ll just say it louder-I’m more than enough- always.
Somedays I doubt all of my abilities, all of my gifts, and all of my goodness. And I want to crawl in a hole until people stop laughing at me and then maybe I’ll come out, when I’ve been forgotten. When I feel this way I’m going to tell myself as gently and lovingly as I would tell a friend. You’re awesome, cut it out. You have too many good things to do to walk around telling yourself these awful lies. The end.
Doubt is a dangerous thing it steals our light I think, and that light is needed so that we can light the way for ourselves and others.
What doubt will you tell to shove it today?
I’d love to hear from you, it would help my nobody reads my blog doubt 😉