We’ve all had those holy crap moments. The ones where you think “am I out of my tree, here?!?!?” That’s it. That moment where you decide to just say it or do it. Maybe it’s the first I love you or the admittance that this isn’t working anymore. Perhaps it’s telling your boss that you’re pursuing a new career or you’re leaving. Maybe you booked that ticket, invested in that course or program, or took that risk. It’s that moment where you think to yourself…Holy Crap, I’m going to do it. And once I do it. I will know. I will know the truth. I will know if it was the right decision or the wrong decision. I will know if I’m destined for success or failure. I will know if I’m smart or an idiot, a calculated risk-taker or a straight up willy nilly whatever flies kind of person. Right then. Right in that moment.
And if you’re like me you’re not saying Holy Crap. You’re really saying Holy S*@*. But I like to try to clean this blog up whenever possible ;). And then you do it. And maybe it’s not as dramatic as you thought, or perhaps you feel like nobody even really noticed. It’s slightly anti-climatic like that feeling you had as a child at the end of your birthday, too much build up. In that next moment do you clam up? Do you think, see I knew my worst fears would come true? I knew that my idea was dumb. Oh maybe that’s just me.
Let’s be honest. That is definitely me — all of the time — well at least lately. I’m learning about myself these days at what feels like warp speed. And I don’t know about you but often when I’m truly learning about myself sometimes it can be… shall we say humbling?! I’m often not as awesome as I’d hoped or dreamt. I’m starting to realize that’s okay. I don’t need to be perfect, hell I don’t even need to be close to perfect. Thankfully, because I’m not. Okay you can stop laughing now 😉
I’m serious though this idea that somehow once you realize what it is you want to do, then you get the you know whats to do it, and then you do it, and then you feel like wait a minute that was it?!?! This whole idea for me is really eye opening. I’ve decided I’m going to do it anyway. Whatever it is. The things I fear most, the things I feel so compelled to do that I just cannot say no. I hope you do the same. Life is so much more fun when we follow our dreams. SO. MUCH. MORE. FUN.