I’ve lost my willpower. Okay let’s be honest I’m not positive I ever had it. But whatever willpower or semblance of one I ever had, I fear that I’m losing it. Mostly what I am losing is the ability to cut the crap, with myself mainly. I actually said to my husband recently I don’t know why but my biggest issue is willpower. I feel like it doesn’t exist. So then of course I thought about it. Then I thought about it some more, I am what some would call an over-thinker. Personally, I don’t think there is such a thing but I digress :). All that thinking did help me to start to realize something.
I don’t think I would describe the world we live in, or at least the world I live in, as particularly focused on willpower. I think about the immediacy of everything, the availability that I am afforded in my life. With few exceptions I can have most of what I need/ want within a VERY SHORT period of time. And for the most part I don’t have to say no to myself, to my needs, and my desires. And just because I don’t have to doesn’t mean I should not.
Don’t get me wrong I am not necessarily advocating for self-deprivation, no not that all, in fact I think I may go as far to say what I’m suggesting is closer to the opposite of that. It’s just that if we never say no to ourselves then yes kind of loses it’s amazingness. I feel like for me it has. I know this is going to be a totally ridiculous example but I want you to try your hardest to stick with me for a moment. When I was younger maybe around 12 or 13, the time of your life where the things that seem most awesome are ordering pizza and hanging out with your friends all hours of the night. I remember thinking oh how amazing will it be to be able to ORDER PIZZA WHENEVER YOU WANT, with your own money, and drive in your own car to pick it up. And now I can do that. I can totally do that. Sadly, it’s not as great as I thought because eventually these freedoms, the little joys, aren’t as fun once you take them for granted.
What’s my point? I’m going to try to work on my willpower. I’m going to say no more so that I can say yes to something else. Hopefully the yes will be to something better something that will bring me more joy. What could you practice saying no to more often? I’m taking back my willpower and hope you will too (or maybe if you’re lucky you still have it!)