I’m going to say it, it’s harder to write than say because when I say it out loud that means we’re in a room together usually or that you know me well enough to know that you will not be afraid by the admission. Your preconceived notions of me have either been met or not met by the time you would learn this about me.
But my faith is majorly important to me. So important in fact that I’m leaving my job at the end of the school year as the Director of Campus Ministry to work full time in letting people explore their own spirituality and have conversations about faith outside of any bubbles they feel stuck in.
Spirituality means lots of things to lots of people. And while that’s all nice and certainly important you’re here so you probably want to know what it means to me. And to be honest it’s not that simple- I know crappy answer, Liz. But I’m honest and if I’m nothing else that’s what I strive for. So there you have it!
While I know that we teach our students in school that wikipedia isn’t the best source all the time….I like the definition there.
“Spirituality is a process of personal transformation, either in accordance with traditional religious ideals, or, increasingly, oriented on subjective experience and psychological growth independently of any specific religious context. In a more general sense, it may refer to almost any kind of meaningful activity or blissful experience. There is no single, widely-agreed definition for the concept.”
For me, the part about personal transformation is truest especially now. But for the purpose of this page I will tell you this. Spirituality is how I see God but certainly related and perhaps more importantly to how I live out the way I see God. It’s the outward expression of my faith. That can be personal. It can be more social. At times it may look very secular- in the sense that I’m hanging out with my kids at a park and there are no words of or “religious” things happening- but that moment is a God moment. I mean I guess technically all moments are, depending on your belief system, but spirituality is the way I experience and live out my relationship with God.
For awhile I’ve struggled with how I put this all out there especially in a blog or in my business because to be honest I get a little nervous. I know people have hang-ups, preconceived notions, true fear, hesitation, and the list goes on and on. I also know that it’s unnatural for me to not be comfortable talking about my own faith and my own ways of living that faith out.
The thing is. My faith is not text book. Not even close to that. In fact, to some it’s straight up irreverent at times but to me its the way it is to be. I’m always growing and learning and changing. There are times where I feel like my personal relationship with God is so strong nothing can shake it, I remember a time when I was involved in an extended retreat-like program called the 19th Annotation of the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyola (I can get more into this later. Long story short, I attended St. Joseph’s University- Philadelphia’s Jesuit University, fell in love with the Jesuits – who were founded by St. Ignatius of Loyola, and the rest is history) 🙂 During this time I actually thought that my relationship with God was so perfect I would run out of a need for faith and spirituality. COMICAL. I mean really. But whatever, I’m older and wiser now (well at least the first part) and I know that days and sometimes much longer periods of time go by where I fail to sit down and chat with God, I feel so far removed from any understanding or outwards sign of my faith, and yet still I know that the faith piece, the God piece for me, is huge.
So there I got it out. Phew. I feel better now. What confessions do you have to make about your faith?! Share with me!