I love the sunset. I love the sunrise. I love New Year’s Eve. I love New Year’s Day. I love the first day of school and I love the last day of school. The in between days, the in between moments are the ones that I have the hardest time with. Really. Truly. It’s kind of a sad reality because if you think about it the sunset and sunrise are a mere few minutes of a long 24 hours. Same with the first and last day of school. And New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day geez I mean 2 days out of a whole freaking year.
The thing is most of our lives are made within those other times. Not the first and the last or the beginning and the end. In my quest to become happier -oh have I not mentioned that yet-I don’t know that I thought it had to be mentioned as I think that’s just living-yearning for more happiness. Well I hope unless you already are 100% happy (in which case go you and please tell me your secret! Please 😉 I hope you too are striving for more.
Don’t get me wrong I don’t think it’s more stuff I need. More time I would take oh and more money well that would be nice, too. I don’t know that it’s about more at all really. In fact it may be about less. I need less stress. Less fear. Less insecurity. Less pressure (mostly from myself.) Less distraction. Less guilt. Less. Less. Less.
I’ve been really thinking about this lately particularly because as I am beginning this new venture these “small steps” to something bigger. I am even more stretched than I have been. I’m stretched really thin. The thing is I think sometimes we are programmed to think that the “busier” we are, the more stressed, the better we are. It means we are relevant and important and all those things that we want to be.
I’m starting to realize that’s not the case. Firstly, everything I have ever wanted truly, everything I have ever hoped for I have already. Right here staring in my face in the eyes of my husband and my 2 sweet boys. I mean really. All the other shit -pardon my language- is just that shit.
Now please don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that I am going to walk around with rainbows coming out of my ears. That’s not me. I’m always gonna be a little cranky-it’s my edge, my signature flare. What I’m saying is this. It’s easy for me to get so caught up in what I don’t have that I forget to notice what I do have. And to be 100 % honest what I do have is far better, far more important than what I don’t. I have to tell myself that EVERY DAY. Because it is so freaking true.
Less is more. Really it is. So I think I’ve got my idea. My overhaul I’ve been feeling like I needed. It’s about less. I’m going to embrace the less. It’s counter intuitive and seems to be juxtaposed to the Magis campaign that St. Joseph’s University is doing (which I love by the way!) But it’s not. Here’s why. Live Greater that’s the Magis. Not more in the sense of more stuff, more accomplishments, more to do lists, more goals. Greater. Sometimes you need less to be greater. Less distraction, less multi-tasking, less rush. Less.
Believe me this isn’t my personal campaign for laziness. In fact it’s quite the opposite. It’s about mindfulness and to be honest the less we are worrying about or doing the more attentive we can be and the more energy we will have. It’s also about the in between. Not the beginning and not the end. All the other stuff. I’m not completely sure I know what it looks like yet. But it’s gonna be beautiful just like that sunset. I can tell you that.