Tomorrow marks a new beginning. It will be the first time I run D.I.S.S.H. (Discussing. Issues. Surrounding. Spirituality. and Hooking-Up.) professionally through Small Steps. I am thrilled. I am a little bit nervous. I am hopeful. I am not ready and I am ready at the same time. It’s a new beginning in many ways and in some it’s the same thing I’ve done a million times before.
It seems like forever ago that I showed up, on what I felt was a stereotypical college campus, with god-knows what packed in boxes and with a lot of fear and excitement. I was ready and I wasn’t all in the same breath. I said good-bye to my mom. I felt big and old and little and young. And so it began.
As many people would say, at least I imagine, it was there on that college campus that I explored who I was, who I wanted to be, and in many ways it was there that I thought the most. I found my faith anew. I discovered service as not just an action but rather a way of being in our world. I had fun. I laughed a lot. I made others laugh, hopefully, at least a little. I look back with a lot of fondness on my college days.
The path I took from there was so formed in those halls, in that chapel, in those relationships. It wasn’t until graduate school where I began to see the faith I had adopted there come to life in my own ability to be so passionate about something and to bring it to light in a new way for myself and for others.
It’s not easy growing up. Anybody who says it is hasn’t even started. In some ways that’s why I developed this discussion group. Because believe it or not (I know if you know me you believe it) sometimes it’s so painful making mistakes that we continue to make them to make ourselves feel better about the first mistake.
While it doesn’t make me proud, it does make me honest to say believe me- I have been there.
So tomorrow I will walk back through the doors of one of my favorite places in the universe (well I guess that’s not a fair statement since technically I haven’t explored the entire universe- you know what I’ll take a chance that even if I had it would still be my one of my favorites.) And I will begin again.
I have a feeling it will be as awesome as it was then but in a new way. I love that. I love that feeling that I am in the right place at the right time doing what I love. D.I.S.S.H. is a group that gives students the opportunity to explore a world that they live in, a culture they are a part of, and let’s them really think about it in a new way. It allows people to ignite their own spark and desire to become authentically them and help others be that, too. How cool is that? I love new beginnings.
Let’s just pray it goes well 🙂