Here’s the thing. It’s Wednesday. I’m freaking tired. Like so tired that it’s 4:30pm and I feel like I still haven’t woken up. I was saying good morning to people this afternoon at 1:30pm. NOT A GOOD SIGN people. Not a good sign at all.
I had this idea for a great blog post. I’m telling you it was gonna be awesome. Blow your socks off. Life changing-good. Well, okay maybe not but the point is I can barely remember it let alone write it.
So I’m here to tell you something else. Something that I am very slowly letting myself learn. It is okay to be who you are and where you are. Judgement sucks, I hate when people judge others. I hate when I feel myself getting all judg-y, look at them?, why’d they do that? and on and on. I hate the feeling of others judging me. I hate feeling judged like I don’t look the way I should, or talk the way I should, or act the way I should.
I try to avoid all of the aforementioned things my own judgement of others and others judgement of me. No thank you. For some reason I still don’t try to avoid my own judgement of myself. I mean really so I’m tired. So I have a to do list 10 million pages long (okay fine my to do list is electronic but you catch my drift, that baby is long!) So what. What is this to eternity? My mom says that a lot and you know what she’s on to something. Pretty much every time I ask myself that question the answer is nada, zilch, the big old goose egg.
It doesn’t matter. It is fine. All will be well. So here I am sitting at my computer feeling like I need to be ticking away at my to-do list. I’m stuck working late and my kids are home with my husband (thank God for him- he happens to be my editor, too.) I feel like there are 20 million reasons I should feel bad and worried and stressed. But I’m not going to I’m gonna look outside at this dreary day, I’m gonna thank God for my gifts even the gift of tiredness, and I’m going to keep on keepin’ on.
This post is brought to you courtesy of exhaustion so don’t judge me and I won’t judge you or myself (that’s the whole point right?!) Just be where you are right now. Don’t worry about what’s next or what has been. Because in this moment. It’s just you and the task in front of you. I’m gonna seize it. You? Well, you do you. I’ll do me!