Who am I? I am still trying to figure this out like I hope many of you are (at least pretend people…to make me feel better). I think sometimes I get really stuck in thinking about who I was. Sometimes I get so stuck that I think that is still who I am. But it’s not. Then other times I think about who I want to be and get so stuck in the fact that I am not her yet that I get mad and feel crappy about myself. I am a work in progress. I’ve always thought that and know that. It wasn’t until recently that I started to think that maybe I saw that as a negative thing, like I wasn’t quite perfected yet. Well that’s not true either. I will grow, mold, shape, and change. But that’s not to say that I’m not just perfectly imperfect right now as all of that is happening.
So who am I? Well there are lots of answers to that question and depending on the season of my life, or even perhaps my mood, the answers will be different. I’m a mom of 2 totally awesome, super cute, little boys. They’re awesome. I work full-time and try to balance being a mom, a wife, a friend, and the 7 million other roles I play.
I am newly embarking on this journey with my speaking business. My hope is that I will one day offer large-scale retreat opportunities for various groups (moms, college students, and the list goes on and on). I hope to be accomplished and have given hundreds of talks to large audiences about how to become more satisfied, more in touch, more authentic, and overall more happy. All of these hopes drive me and get me thinking about who I want to become.
In the end. I am just little old me. Trying to make it in this crazy world as a mom, and a woman, and a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend and trying to do so happily and healthily. It sounds easier than it is. I’m sure you can relate. I saw a quote a few weeks ago that I loved and I searched high and low and in the far corners of this lovely internet and lo and behold I found it. Rest assured it is not my own. “Don’t compare your beginning to someone else’s middle.” Jon Acuff. Touché Mr. Acuff as I google you to find you that you are a New York Time bestseller, a blogger, and over all seemingly just a teeny bit more awesome than me. You’re an example to me. You are in the middle. I am in the beginning…
That simultaneously terrifies me and makes me feel better. The beginning is not without its craziness, its fears and hesitations. But as my dear friend, Maria Von Trapp from the Sound of Music (my all time favorite movie), reminds us…
“Let’s start at the very beginning a very good place to start…”
I’m not sure what she would say “to blog you begin with…” or “to start a successful business you begin with…”
Either way. I’m taking the advice of those who have gone before me, those who are for sure much wiser. I am starting at the very beginning and I am not comparing it to anyone else’s journey at all. Beginning, middle, or end. For one thing I’ve learned for sure in my life, and that is no matter how many times you try you will NEVER be somebody else. So I’m embracing the me and I’m going to just go with that. What do you think about the beginning of things? Anything new and scary and awesome beginning in your life? Please feel free to share!